Then do things to it that don't cost a lot of money, Like the interior - make custom speaker boxos and new door panels in wood shop and upolster them; learn body working skills. Or, you could quit breaking cam towers doing donuts with a stock motor, and learn how to do it the right way - you can burn rubber all day when you pay a little bit of attention to how the truck runs before it breaks. We all have done dumb things with our vehicles, the point is to learn from the mistakes we have made.